Lonesome Fridays is not the lack of a social "life" but the choice not to be with people.

A taxi driver joked once "Mamatay kayo kung di kayo makalabas twing biyernes no?Ha!

I find myself very restless during these times.I dont know.  I guess, when you have no one or when you feel alone even if you have someone you wouldnt know what to do?  No not boredom, i know how it is.  Tigang?  Cguro man, but see if you are alone, you tend to want and desires are not far.  You tend to look at earthly things as saviours.  You seek pleasure, the comfort of feeling, the ecstasy.  That artificial you are concious then that this will never satisfy you.  The body will want more without, i dont know maybe knowing.

Will social life save?

I havent posted anything  for a tym now maybe because im not traveling much now?Or just maybe there is no point of talking to people talk about yourself wen u must see them everyday.

But to unburden myself now there is purpose again in posting.

My old self is there again and i am easily hurt by the first rejection .I can see myself a young boy.

Ill never submit to any group of people i feel i never was welcome.  Thats why for the past three years i go solo in class.  I asked a friend if a paper was a groupwork?He says "It depends" when infact we were a group and he has written the paper for the group?What good is a group.  Di naman ganun ka kakapal mukha ko so it frustrated me alot.

I lost my fone today out of that.Does this mean i have to be alone more now?

no thing to tell you

April: how come you came home so late?
AJ:went to see my friends.

the past 48 hours iv extended my day to meet up with old friends.  Some people i have never met for almost 3 years, another for about a month and the last i was stuck with for now.

Why do i have to be sedated to hav fun and reaquaint myself with people i used to know?boredom boredom bored

Sedated Me and a friend got intimate that friday night...it was sweet.No one new,

except meeting those Eng boys for a few moments which i never got introduced to since Sedated Me has got to feed breaksfast my friends in thecondo which stank fish market from the broken fridge.

Sedated me thought to Caca but it was just rhum and coke brewing.
Later sedated me got to a fancy party with a fancier salad i was getting familiar with these days and fancy fowl. Some friends were worse than the last tym iv seen them,others richer.

A brave decision lead to an expensive cab to Rosario to a group i got along with superficially. Block 12 or is it exclaimed himala!Historical to Sedate Me long gone...Sedated me who wanted to be more sedated wanted to see for the last tym block 12.

Theres nothing new, nothing to talk about but the immediate future so Sedated Me thought to sleep at last. 
The automobile speeding with lust from C5 to the South Super,
 an old acquaintance telling us to welcome Heaven if ever we woke up.

(artwork lifted from a page in vmag,part my Journal Series)

Last month i worked on a large blackboard painting for me and my brothers botiq in Davao...Hav to struggle to control enamel for the first time and work crazily on my biggest canvas ever.My brother was pressuring to finish the POPARt piece in just 3 days just in time for the opening of the botiq.During which i never took a bath, ate spareribs with a hint of thinner, spent all my money on new nylon brushes while balancing my time on other chores that my Dad has given me.What a break!

I had to ask for help from my sis April and Amie(my bros gf) to finish some details tho cos it was nearing April 28th.Bought my first copy of Juxtapoz during the interval which influenced me alot..All worth it i was satisfied after the time.Partially sedated from the lovely thinner and enamel in that small space.Wanna do more walls!

lalala hapy shit!!:)

Check out the baristas of Manila brewing subculture art and graphics. 

www.inksurge.com

Isang hulog ng langit ang mga taong ito sa pagcontribute sa scene dito sa Manila!go go go!I hope ill see an art warehouse district in the midst of the metro or an art colony in the brewing in our islands!something new and fresh!Dimasalang is so way over last century pa.:)